I never thought it would be me I was careless and very naive Maybe i thought i was invinsible If only id cared more for myself maybe the end result would have been different was i shocked most definitely but theres not a reason in the world you should feel sad for me i thought this news would kill me but Not I Ill live every day like its my last this may be the reason I go, But when I do believe I will have warned the world.

Escape

There was a time when I could run
I ran into my innermost sanctum
There was relief there.
I no longer know this place to be home,
Where can I go? I need an escape!
Where can I hide? Where can I go to feel safe?
The inner most recesses of my mind they scare me now
I feel trapped. Like a prisoner at Guantanamo bay I am locked in
With no where to go! Why has my home changed on my why had it turned on me. I once knew happiness
Now I'm cold and alone. Fearing that every corner I turn will introduce me to lower freezing temperatures.
People say to me it's ok, but I know it's not true. I need to escape this place.
Maybe I'll burn it down. I can rebuild I can make this place warm again but only with the burning flames of freedom.
Freedom to Rome and be me. I just need to escape. I stand at the inside of the door with this gas can and a match!
That is what I'll do I'll burn it down I'll rebuild... No I won't I refuse I'll burn it down and I'll escape to the cliff near the beach to face the rushing waters that lye below. Jumping, diving head first with no. Regret into the waters of freedom! Fleeing and escaping this place I used to call home and I'll build again for in my escape I'll be me I'll be free I'll be whom I once was!

THANK YOU

Damn,
To chose those words
Those words of sheer beauty
every syllable Rings in my heart
Beacause you knew
You Knew just what it was that I felt
Every pain Joy filled Tear
Every glimmering light in my eye
You knew the Joy you Brought me
and To Think it was the same Joy I brought you
Did you Know When you gave me Those Sweet words
That was how I felt for you
Did you Know that Every Time I think of you
I smile Because your Love
It Brightens My Day
Well Thank You
Thank You for those words Of sheer Beauty
Thank you For those Syllables of Sweet Joy
Thank You For you Love Each Day
And Thank you For letting Me Love you more
Every Day In Every Way!!

Virgin Beauty

Im a virgin
I Told Him that
He said He could Wait
That was Three Months ago
Now He ask me Everyday
Dont You love Me
Dont you Trust Me
The answer is yes
And damn I want him
but I fear
As soon as I give it up He will Leave
I fear that the Way he is acting now
THat is all he wants
He says He love me
but he says He has Needs
My momma once said
What you wont do
Someone Else Will
does that Mean he will leave me because I wont
Give it up
My momma also said
I was a Virgin Beauty
So Thats why I hold It dear
Im a Senior in College
and I want True Love
He will Get it when I know
But I just want to be able to say
I Lost My Virgin Beauty To
The Perfect One

Fear Is real

DAMN!
Im so scared
Im afraid of
everything within me
Im afraid to love
Im scared to let go
Im scared to trust
Maybe its because
Ive been Hurt
Maybe Im just afraid to be yours
Maybe Im Afraid to Be Happy
It must be that
I must be afraid to be happy
But Why?
Is it because My Daddy never Loved me
Maybe Because My Mom Never Cared
Is it because Ive Never Seen True happiness
Why Am I afraid to open up and let you in
You Pry So hard But...
DAMN!!
Im So Scared
I Sit here in Tears
I know You Love Me
I want to Let Go
I want to Let you In
But Im So scared
Im so scared to trust another Man
the Last one I trusted
Hurt Me
Please Just Hold Me Kiss Me
Be My Prince
Be My Amazing
Help Me To Let Go
Help Me to Let Love
Help Me to Love you

Pain caused By a friendship changed by sex

I told you the other Day
I liked you
I missed you
and I wanted to be with you
You never replied
that hurt quite a bit
Now I wish Id Never said
anything
I go back further
I wish we Had never Had Sex
I wish We Had Remained Friends
I miss you so Damn Much
I miss laughing on the phone with you
I miss the late night talks we used to have
I tried to hide my feelings and now
You are gone
I let fear run You away and now
there is no way I can get you Back
I wish things were Different
I really Do
We dont even speak anymore
It makes me sad
I Text You ignore
You text I rush to reply
I miss you
I think I may Love you

Reply to My Joy

I feel Moved to tell you
The Baby that is inside you
is Mine
I am happy
Life and Love
They Grow in You and Me
I Love you
and I Love you more
for your Choice
so I must Ask you
Will You Marry Me
I know You may Wonder
How will We survive
But Worry Not
God Is Here
Worry Not
for He has a plan
We will Get BY
Peace And Pain
We Will Have
But The pain Will
Help us Find that Peace
I love You and I love you Because You
will give Me the Greatest gift of All
Love
Unconditional LOVE and for that
you are
MY JOY