I think I always will

You Hate me Now
I cant say I blame you
Im sure you wish
you had never fallen in love with me
I could never wish that for myself
you still make me smile
I just really like him
When you didnt answer me
I dont know
I guess I figured you didnt want me
Its not like you told me on a regular
He does everyday
I understand you aren't the feelings type
I dont blame you at all
I do Love you
I think I always will
I really hope you dont hate me
though I'd understand if you did
Maybe one day we really will get married
Maybe one day we can at least be friends
Because to totally lose your first love
is not a good feeling
I know I gave up by moving on
I know that says more about me than you
there are no excuses
just know that I really do Love you
I think I always will

Drugs

I met you on a cool august day
You said Hi I said Hi Back
We decided we would exchange numbers
we talked everyday we texted all the time
I helped you move into your room
that night i slept over
and you became my boyfriend
from then on you became my drug
I couldnt stop thinking about you
every time I saw you I had to have some of you
We have had our up and downs
our fights and carry-ons but
I love you
Ive tried to see myself with someone else
I cant
Ive tried to forget you
I cant
Ive tried to let you go and end the pain you sometimes cause
but again I cant
You are my drug you flow through my veins like blood
you move through my lungs like air
damn you are all I want
you are my drug

a friendship gone and ended

As I sit in this room
this cold dark room
this Damn dusty Room
I wonder
What did I do
what Did I say
better yet What didnt I do
and What didnt i say
See there was oh so much
There were so many words that could have filled the air
but I let not one of them fly
You made me choose
and you made my chose
it surely was not to be you
Now i sit here tattered and torn
I sit here beaten and bloody
what do I do
Where am I
How did we end up here
I dont know Im sure you probably dont either
But Im sure if We retrace our steps we can surely find out
just where Our little hide out is
What the fuck was the problem It was all so fucking
perfect
but too perfect We were the three blind mice the three musketeers
We were fresh Jamie and richard
We were a family even people who did not speak to us saw that and Liked that
but Now we are all pulled apart scattered and dead
lost among the many files of homicide cases that will go unsolved
because our friendship may never be resolved
see I just dont understand how I ended up in the
cold dark room
this damp dusty room
this room that looks so unfamiliar
but then again can I see
Im dead no feeling
Numb I dont know or maybe im not dead because while physically I cant feel
a thing emotionally and mentally Im in pain
Im in this room
dark cold dusty damp in a bucket of Ice and im
LOST

Attempted Suicide

You slit your wrist
you took those pills
you put the gun up to your head
You pulled the trigger now your dead
The floor is drenched in blood
nothing but red
but my life is now in turmoil
did you think of Me
Did you think of Us
Your family
obviously Not
No you Didn't Die
Now we Live with
The feeling that we are not
GOOD Enough
did your problems leave
Did your issues die
No but Now we
must remember when you
ATTEMPTED SUICIDE

worry Bee

You been following me
asking me whats wrong
Just because i dont look happy
im fine are you ok
I think you worry too much
Why worry about me
I have been fine thus far
YOu ask every five minutes these days
You move differently around me
you speak differently
you look at me a little different
Why are you worrying
the Doctors say Im fine
Please just calm down
when you worry
I worry
Please just stop
SIt down and Leave me alone
there is no need to worry any longer
Im Here
and to stay

I LOVE YOU TOO

I want you
I only want you
Please stay with me
Ill do anything
I just want to feelthe love like that first night
that night we made Love
I want to Feel you spirit
intertwined with mine
Please Stay
I dont know what I would do with you
you are my world
Id leave this world if it meant youd stay
please dont you remember the love we shared
Dont you care
My heart is breaking please just say something
give me one word
I LOVe you
Please LOVE me too
I need YOU
SPEAK PLEASE
...
I LOVE YOU TOO

Married

we met about two years ago
It started out really rocky
at first you didnt like me very much
I kept trying though
I knew you were the only one I wanted
I had to have you
you came around and gave me a first date
after that we had a second and third
soon we were exclusive
you were there when my granny passed
I was there when your dad died
you helped me when they stole my identity
I helped you start your own business
we soon fell in LOVE
I could not go with out talking to you
so I asked you to marry me
In the middle of the restaurant
you said yes
I was too elated
we planned and planned
through it all
through everything
you stood by me
and now
youll stand by me forever
because
we're
MARRIED