a friendship gone and ended

As I sit in this room
this cold dark room
this Damn dusty Room
I wonder
What did I do
what Did I say
better yet What didnt I do
and What didnt i say
See there was oh so much
There were so many words that could have filled the air
but I let not one of them fly
You made me choose
and you made my chose
it surely was not to be you
Now i sit here tattered and torn
I sit here beaten and bloody
what do I do
Where am I
How did we end up here
I dont know Im sure you probably dont either
But Im sure if We retrace our steps we can surely find out
just where Our little hide out is
What the fuck was the problem It was all so fucking
perfect
but too perfect We were the three blind mice the three musketeers
We were fresh Jamie and richard
We were a family even people who did not speak to us saw that and Liked that
but Now we are all pulled apart scattered and dead
lost among the many files of homicide cases that will go unsolved
because our friendship may never be resolved
see I just dont understand how I ended up in the
cold dark room
this damp dusty room
this room that looks so unfamiliar
but then again can I see
Im dead no feeling
Numb I dont know or maybe im not dead because while physically I cant feel
a thing emotionally and mentally Im in pain
Im in this room
dark cold dusty damp in a bucket of Ice and im
LOST

Attempted Suicide

You slit your wrist
you took those pills
you put the gun up to your head
You pulled the trigger now your dead
The floor is drenched in blood
nothing but red
but my life is now in turmoil
did you think of Me
Did you think of Us
Your family
obviously Not
No you Didn't Die
Now we Live with
The feeling that we are not
GOOD Enough
did your problems leave
Did your issues die
No but Now we
must remember when you
ATTEMPTED SUICIDE

worry Bee

You been following me
asking me whats wrong
Just because i dont look happy
im fine are you ok
I think you worry too much
Why worry about me
I have been fine thus far
YOu ask every five minutes these days
You move differently around me
you speak differently
you look at me a little different
Why are you worrying
the Doctors say Im fine
Please just calm down
when you worry
I worry
Please just stop
SIt down and Leave me alone
there is no need to worry any longer
Im Here
and to stay

I LOVE YOU TOO

I want you
I only want you
Please stay with me
Ill do anything
I just want to feelthe love like that first night
that night we made Love
I want to Feel you spirit
intertwined with mine
Please Stay
I dont know what I would do with you
you are my world
Id leave this world if it meant youd stay
please dont you remember the love we shared
Dont you care
My heart is breaking please just say something
give me one word
I LOVe you
Please LOVE me too
I need YOU
SPEAK PLEASE
...
I LOVE YOU TOO

Married

we met about two years ago
It started out really rocky
at first you didnt like me very much
I kept trying though
I knew you were the only one I wanted
I had to have you
you came around and gave me a first date
after that we had a second and third
soon we were exclusive
you were there when my granny passed
I was there when your dad died
you helped me when they stole my identity
I helped you start your own business
we soon fell in LOVE
I could not go with out talking to you
so I asked you to marry me
In the middle of the restaurant
you said yes
I was too elated
we planned and planned
through it all
through everything
you stood by me
and now
youll stand by me forever
because
we're
MARRIED

I'm sorry

I know Im not perfect
Im not what you wanted me to be
If I could be I would
Im sorry I've disappointed you
Im sorry
I know you deserve better
So Ill go
Ill leave never to return
Ill die of who I am
I will Move on
You will Never see this me again
You May meet the New me
but I am sorry
I am so sorry

Letter to Mr.

Dear Mr,
You have swept me off my feet
I dont know what it was
your smile made me weak
you look made me happy
I just know that Im smitten by you
If there is anything I could do
Just let me know
I would love to make You happy
The way you make me feel
But you seem so far away
If I could Just get a little closer
I know Ill make you mine
Please Mr. don't hurt me
Mr Dear Mr I want you to be mine
Please Tell me Mr that You love Me
and Ill be Content
MR MR Be mine Just for some time
Thank you MR