a friendship gone and ended

As I sit in this room
this cold dark room
this Damn dusty Room
I wonder
What did I do
what Did I say
better yet What didnt I do
and What didnt i say
See there was oh so much
There were so many words that could have filled the air
but I let not one of them fly
You made me choose
and you made my chose
it surely was not to be you
Now i sit here tattered and torn
I sit here beaten and bloody
what do I do
Where am I
How did we end up here
I dont know Im sure you probably dont either
But Im sure if We retrace our steps we can surely find out
just where Our little hide out is
What the fuck was the problem It was all so fucking
perfect
but too perfect We were the three blind mice the three musketeers
We were fresh Jamie and richard
We were a family even people who did not speak to us saw that and Liked that
but Now we are all pulled apart scattered and dead
lost among the many files of homicide cases that will go unsolved
because our friendship may never be resolved
see I just dont understand how I ended up in the
cold dark room
this damp dusty room
this room that looks so unfamiliar
but then again can I see
Im dead no feeling
Numb I dont know or maybe im not dead because while physically I cant feel
a thing emotionally and mentally Im in pain
Im in this room
dark cold dusty damp in a bucket of Ice and im
LOST

Attempted Suicide

You slit your wrist
you took those pills
you put the gun up to your head
You pulled the trigger now your dead
The floor is drenched in blood
nothing but red
but my life is now in turmoil
did you think of Me
Did you think of Us
Your family
obviously Not
No you Didn't Die
Now we Live with
The feeling that we are not
GOOD Enough
did your problems leave
Did your issues die
No but Now we
must remember when you
ATTEMPTED SUICIDE