Virgin Beauty

Im a virgin
I Told Him that
He said He could Wait
That was Three Months ago
Now He ask me Everyday
Dont You love Me
Dont you Trust Me
The answer is yes
And damn I want him
but I fear
As soon as I give it up He will Leave
I fear that the Way he is acting now
THat is all he wants
He says He love me
but he says He has Needs
My momma once said
What you wont do
Someone Else Will
does that Mean he will leave me because I wont
Give it up
My momma also said
I was a Virgin Beauty
So Thats why I hold It dear
Im a Senior in College
and I want True Love
He will Get it when I know
But I just want to be able to say
I Lost My Virgin Beauty To
The Perfect One

Fear Is real

DAMN!
Im so scared
Im afraid of
everything within me
Im afraid to love
Im scared to let go
Im scared to trust
Maybe its because
Ive been Hurt
Maybe Im just afraid to be yours
Maybe Im Afraid to Be Happy
It must be that
I must be afraid to be happy
But Why?
Is it because My Daddy never Loved me
Maybe Because My Mom Never Cared
Is it because Ive Never Seen True happiness
Why Am I afraid to open up and let you in
You Pry So hard But...
DAMN!!
Im So Scared
I Sit here in Tears
I know You Love Me
I want to Let Go
I want to Let you In
But Im So scared
Im so scared to trust another Man
the Last one I trusted
Hurt Me
Please Just Hold Me Kiss Me
Be My Prince
Be My Amazing
Help Me To Let Go
Help Me to Let Love
Help Me to Love you

Pain caused By a friendship changed by sex

I told you the other Day
I liked you
I missed you
and I wanted to be with you
You never replied
that hurt quite a bit
Now I wish Id Never said
anything
I go back further
I wish we Had never Had Sex
I wish We Had Remained Friends
I miss you so Damn Much
I miss laughing on the phone with you
I miss the late night talks we used to have
I tried to hide my feelings and now
You are gone
I let fear run You away and now
there is no way I can get you Back
I wish things were Different
I really Do
We dont even speak anymore
It makes me sad
I Text You ignore
You text I rush to reply
I miss you
I think I may Love you

Reply to My Joy

I feel Moved to tell you
The Baby that is inside you
is Mine
I am happy
Life and Love
They Grow in You and Me
I Love you
and I Love you more
for your Choice
so I must Ask you
Will You Marry Me
I know You may Wonder
How will We survive
But Worry Not
God Is Here
Worry Not
for He has a plan
We will Get BY
Peace And Pain
We Will Have
But The pain Will
Help us Find that Peace
I love You and I love you Because You
will give Me the Greatest gift of All
Love
Unconditional LOVE and for that
you are
MY JOY

My Joy

I am moved to tell you
The Baby I carry Is yours
Im sorry but
I want it
Life and Love
They Grow in Me
Perfection and Grace
Will Live through Me
So I do apologize
I must keep What is ours
I will Understand If you chose to leave
Yes of course I will Be sad
But Know I will get over it
I Love you and
I want you to Love Our Child
If you Cant I will understand
Dont worry How we will get By
God Will Make a Way
Peace and Pain
Grow inside me
but I live for the Peace
and Pray for the Pain
You Don't understand
It is okay I Love you
Because You Gave Me
My Joy

I truly Hate what this is
I Feel nothing
I know nothing
Its like i'm on an anesthetic
I Feel No pain
I Feel No Sorrow
I Know Not Happiness
and it is all because of You
You were my daydream
but now you are
my only Nightmare
I hate that you control me
i hate that I love you
I hate That you love Me
Lets just do this
Lets just Die in pure Misery
You hate Me just as I hate you
We are no Good for Each other
Maybe thats Why we are Perfect for Each other
But Ill Never Know
I Never Knew
I dont understand
Why are We
What are We
Where do we go from fear
Where do we go from Hate
Lets just Die this sweet Nightmare Of Death
And let misery Be ours forever More

I Love you But

I Love you But
It's not going to work
We cant do this any longer
we dont talk
we dont chill
we barely know each other
Everything says run But
My heart says stay
you make me smile with one word
the moon Shines when you smile
and my heart glows when you kiss me
I Love You But
The Time is never Right
I fear it never will Be
You scare me when you pull away
your so sure
but then your not what is your problem
I Love You But
is all You ever say
But today I say good-bye but
Im not Coming Back